Super wordly post and feelings..... emotions... And now read with your heart... So many eventful things happen.
In life, times I question myself. What is happiness,exactly.
Does beauty equals to happiness ? Does having a pretty and perfect body gives you happiness?
or does just simple stuffs with your friends means happiness.. Seeing them smile... Or with your loved ones... Those precious moments..
Maybe just a little light guiding you would mean happiness ... Because you know someone is there.. Or to some, money is the key to happiness..
maybe just releasing yourself to nature would mean happiness, colorful.
So what is happiness exactly ?

Once again, I question myself ... happiness happiness... Where're you.... Where can I find happiness.. It's all within ourselves, I guess..
Many times, I asked myself, every now and then.
" Are you happy ? " I dont need beauty, money, desires to make me happy. (To reduce contradiction: $ for a better life, to solve problems, but even the poor are happy in a way)
I just want a "simple and pure innocence" happiness. I mean, it feels as if.... I've lost this happiness.. Somewhat, it doesn't belong to me.
Family, I've lost the love, the happiness,the warmth.
And friends, they're all that I've. I love them , and I want them to be happy. But then again, what do I mean by I want them to be happy ? Seeing them smile? Is that the real happiness?
Boyfriend, and so what? Does love equal to happiness.. I quarrel with him, every single day, and I mean every single day. There's not even a peaceful day...
So what're you HAPPINESS ?! You're so powerful ... You influence others , you make them fall when you're gone..
And you never came back .....
Am I hiding you inside me ?
or are you long gone ... ?
Love.Lust.Hate.Power.Happines.Pain.Greed.
The Influential ones.
I salute you. And people, what do you think? Have you found your happiness ? I hope you all are happy. Because... it either creates you or destroy you , in a powerful manner. --------------------------------------------------------------------------------
And I'm a human like you. I need love. I need assurance. I need every single thing that everyone of you needs.
And you gave me none of those. You claim you did. In actual fact, you THOUGHT you did. Let me tell you this, you didnt.
But then again, what's the point of me typing so much. Never once had you really tried and feel what I'm really feeling.. You wont know, even when you claim you know. It's different, really different you know.
So much for disappointments. Sigh......
At the end of the day, everyday is just another day.
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